I don't normally post about non-Jewish related magic here, but I wanted to talk about the magic I did last night.
I had a giant magic flop Saturday night. I just felt ridiculous, and I couldn't get into "the zone". After soem soul searching, I tried something very different from what I usually do last night, and I had AMAZING results. I made some absinthe a while ago, so I had some of that. Then I listened to this awesome shamanic drumming mp3. I then listened to Andrieh Vitimus' amazing "Ceremony of Power", which is very powerful; I strongly recommend it. Then there was more drumming, and then just ocean white noise. I've never done magic via headphones before, but I really, really liked it. It was the most powerful shamanic vision-quest I've ever had, even compared to one with mushrooms. I'm going to record some audio magic of my own soon. (I'm off work yesterday and today for Sukkoth, and again next mon & tues for simchat torah, so maybe then)
It's hard for me to describe what happened, but I will try. After working thru the Al i Shan "Ceremony of Power" ritual (seriously, if you haven't tried it, DO IT NOW! It's a free download; it's super easy and very potent. If you've always wanted to try magic, but didn't know how to start, do this.), I was all lit up like an electric christmas tree.
I shifted through a whole lot of witch archetypes, and I settled into Pythia, the Oracle at Delphi. Have you seen pictures of that giant prehistoric snake? That was the Python of Delphi. She taught me a snake dance. Then, I met the one-armed Siberian shamaness from American Gods, and she taught me how to assume the mammoth form, which was very powerful and interesting. This was all in the context of the root evolutionary becoming ritual from Clan of the Cave Bear (don't you judge me!) Then, I assumed Bear form, which was kind of weird, and felt not so much like me, but still cool. I was Kitara from Avatar, the last Airbender very briefly, and then I was the Avatar Form, which seemed a lot like being Buddha, but with magic powers.
I have arranged these things as if they went in a narrative sequence, but that's not entirely right; they were all happening over and over in a sort of spiral. Here's another way to explain it:
I started off in the primordial chaos, and Tiamat taught me to be a giant fish (or possibly a Leviathon). Sometimes I was a river dragon instead of a fish. I swam about eating/absorbing things, until I turned into the Great Goddess, seated on a throne. I swallowed malkuth, and went up to the moon. I swallowed that to. I shot through Hod like electricity. Thoth taught me a bird-headed thing, which was weird, and my glasses kept sliding down my beak (I don't know why that wasn't a problem when I was, say, a fish...I think because Thoth Hermes is a godform I assume a lot, so it felt like my regular body). Anyhow, I got to Netzach, which was pleasant and sticky and sexy and wet. I spent some time there. I tried the Sun again, but Jesus was there, and that freaked me out, and I choken again, and had to spit the Sun out. It was too big for me to swallow. This happened several times. After a while, I realized that I didn't have to worship Jesus, I had to be him, which was less threatening, but getting crucified seemed like it would suck, so I spit that out again.
Then I did some magic, which I intentionally forgot. I remember it flying away like a butterfly. Then I got kind of queasy. I called to Brian to come help me, but he wasn't anywhere (well, actually it turns out he was on the porch, but it seemed like he was no where). I stumbled to the bathroom and threw up a little, which was lame, but then I rewound time, so that didn't actually happen (which made sense at the time). Brian finally showed up and helped me to bed. I just wanted to sleep, but there was one last thing. Pythia came again, and gave me an important prophecy, which I can't talk about, and I hope isn't true. I guess we'll see soon.
I slept for a really long time (about 10 hours). I'm still feeling weirdly disconnected from my body, and not fully grounded, which is not unpleasant, but not very productive either. Eating is a very sensual pleasure right now. I wasn't up for cooking, but Brian made me some ramen and peas, and they were the best things ever.
So, there you go. Magical field report.