I've been doing some pathworking lately, indirectly inspired by Jason Miller's AMAZING Sorcery classes. I can't recommend them highly enough. He and I are paradigmatically more similar that I would have expected, and nearly every lesson has great things to say (Although his technical skill as an explainer is not so great). If you sign up for lessons, tell him I sent you. In a later blog-post, I'll tell you about my new work in the "horizon realm" of Solomon's Temple.
Last night, I went looking for an animal spirit guide. Now, those of you who know me know that this is a thing I do every five years or so with weird results. This time, like most other times, I was at the place where "the next animal you see come down the path will be your spirit guide" and when the door opened, it was a human. Again. Historically, I've just chalked this up as a failure (or a joke). I've grown a lot as a spirit magician in the laste several years, so I thought I would try to examine it further. I asked for the spirit to appear to me in my dreams and went to sleep. I'm a big fan of oneiromancy. The spirit appeared again, looking not unlike Christ, which would have been troubling to me if I were awake. Is Jesus my spirit guide? My yiddishe mama might have something to say about that! Strangely, it also looked kind of like my boss. This is relevant because I had a dream about my boss the night before, from which I awoke suffused with a feeling of love (not erotic love...chesed love), which was very weird, but makes more sense now.
I asked it for its name, and it said Adam Kadmon, and resolved into being the referent of the illustration at the left (which I've seen many times). This is an illustration of the tree of life superimposed upon a human. The human's, and the illustration's, name is Adam Kadmon, which means "Original Man". It's the Platonic form of "human", created in G-d's image. Anyhow, immediately after giving me the name, I woke up. That was about 5 this morning. (My alarm goes off at 6, so that's not as early as it sounds to people who aren't teachers)
I decided to use the extra hour to meditate. Other than confirming the name, I didn't really get any clarity. I am thinking about trying to visit Tipheret (the sphere of supernal beauty where Adam's heart is) to see if that explains anything. Thank G-d it's Shabbat! ;)
More updates tomorrow if I have anything to report. I'd very much appreciate insights on this; especially from people with spirit-animal experience.