Monday, October 5, 2015

Kabbalah: You're Doing It Wrong

At Crucible, a bunch of people told me I should be teaching, and now I'm thinking about writing a course or a book about kabbalah.  I thought I'd start writing it here, so I could get some feedback about what people like and don't like.  This is very much a rough draft; most of the citations are missing, and I'm sure it's riddled with typos.  I haven't typset much Hebrew, because it takes forever to keep switching alphabets.  Also, there's no real structure; I'm just talking.  This is what I sound like without editing. :)  I'll flesh it out later, but I wanted to get a rough outline down.  I feel like I'm writing in a perhaps too academic style here.  I'd appreciate feedback on whether people would prefer a "chattier" style.  Because so many occultists have so many (nonsensical) ideas about the tree of life, I thought it would be easier to start with something less familiar.  If my years of classroom teaching have taught me anything it's that the hardest thing we do as educators isn't teaching new material, it's unteaching biases, confusion, and misconception.


Ezekiel's Wheel in St. John the Baptist Church in KratovoMacedonia.




Lesson Zero: What Is Kabbalah?

In today’s lesson, I’m going to start off with a somewhat controversial claim: In modern occult parlance, the best translation of the word kabbalah is “personal gnosis”. This might seem odd, since, as its usually used by occultists, the kabbalah is mostly understood as a rather rigidly intellectual system of fixed correspondences. However, the word “kabbalah” ( קבלה) itself means “something received” which we understand to mean “received wisdom” or gnosis. As Clifford Hartleigh Low rightly points out, "kabbalah" can also mean apprenticeship: "The implication is that it's taught from father to son, reaching back to the knowledge of Adam after the expulsion from Eden. It is the literal translation of apprenticeship, so that one can receive the kabbalah of dying wool from one's dad."

This is knowledge we gain ONLY by direct experience of it; neither faith nor reason is sufficient (although both are required).  In most cases, the word "kabbalah" is intended is contrasted with “torah” (תורה) which means “something taught”. In its earliest usage, the word “kabbalah” refers more or less to the entire body of what we would now call “oral torah”, ALL of the teachings of Judaism apart from the “books of Moses” (**CITATION**).   However, in modern parlance, kabbalah refers, broadly, to the entirety of Jewish esoteric tradition, and more specifically to three related strains of esoteric teachings: theoretical (iyunit), practical (ma’asit), and ecstatic (merkaba).

The Hermetic kabbalah derives entirely for theoretical (also sometimes called “speculative” or “theosophical”) kabbalah. Personally, I think "philoosphical" is probably the best way to explain it.  Theoretical kabbalah is the domain of the scholar; it’s primarily purpose is to lay out a consistent ontology to use in understanding and interpreting Jewish Holy Law. Outside of this context, it’s just not, in my opinion, especially useful. It teaches many beautiful truths about the nature of the humanity, the Divine, the universe, and the complicated relationship between them. But I’d be hard pressed to say (and I suspect you might be too) just what it’s FOR. I like to the think of the theoretical kabbalah as a “dream interpretation dictionary”; useful ONLY in the hands of someone with (1) the skill to induce visionary dreams, (2) a solid understanding of when to throw out the dictionary and interpret dreams experientially, and (3) a reason to care about messages from the dream world. Similarly, theoretical kabbalah provides a dictionary to help understand, talk about, and contextualize the experiences provoked by practical and ecstatic kabbalah.

The practical kabbalah, on the other hand, is a system of magic. The practical kabbalah predates the theoretical by many centuries; it is primarily a system of spirit sorcery very similar to that found in the PGM or other Mediterranean systems of similar age. The best English source on Jewish magic is, without doubt, Gideon Bohak’s Ancient Jewish Magic: A History, which I highly recommend. However, Dr. Bohak’s work is academic in nature, and requires a solid grasp on the socio-religious climate of the Near East in the Iron Age.  It's not really aimed at practicing magicians; you have to tease the useful bits out of a lot of commentary on the archaeological methodology.  I’ll be discussing a great deal of practical kabbalah during this class, but my main focus is going to be on merkaba kabbalah.

The ecstatic kabbalah is often called Ma’aseh Merkaba, or the Work of the Chariot. (There is also a specific text by this name, which I'll discuss in detail in a later lesson.)  It is named after Ezekiel’s vision of the chariot in chapter one of his prophecy. If you're not familiar with the passage, go read it.  Another name for the practice is "Hekhlaot", which means "palaces", a reference to the places one travels in the chariot.  This is perhaps the oldest form of kabbalah; the techniques of kabbalistic ascent are well documented in Talmud, the Dead Sea scrolls, and much of the apocrypha.  At it's root, this is the shamanic journey that forms the basis of almost all mystic work, in any culture.  That being said, merkaba kabbalah gives us a unique perspective on the matter; there are a limited number of literate cultures with a thriving unbroken tradition of visionary trance work; Merkava provides a unique opportunity to engage with a well-documented living tradition that arises out of a culture very similar to urban, middle-class, American existence.  I think you'd be hard-pressed to name another kind of shamanism with a documented history of practice stretching from the iron age to the present, with a world head-quarters in Brooklyn and an outreach movement.

At its most basic, kabbalah is a system for inducing, understanding, and using visionary trance.  This is used both as a system of divinatory communication with the Divine and also as a sort of shamanic healing practice (for individuals, communities, and "situations").  There is very little non-dogmatic work available in English on merkaba kabbalah aimed at "outsiders".  The best resource I have found is Jonathan Garb's Shamanic Trance and Modern Kabbalah, but it is aimed primarily at scholars of religion with a solid grounding in Jewish theology and history.  However, Chabad and other Jewish organizations have VAST quantities of high-quality free materials just waiting for you to read them.  Now, while those materials require very little background, they do require one to read with your skeptic's mind engaged; while you read, don't forget that those materials are translated and written by religious fundamentalists for the express purpose of promulgating their very narrow view of Judaism.  Orthodox Judaism can sometimes be a hotbed of misogyny, racism, and narrow-mindedness.  But, that doesn't come from the actual doctrine; it's just an unavoidable fact that isolating a community breeds corruption and narrow-mindedness.  Don't throw the baby out with the bathwater.  It's why I like to think of what we're doing here as Traif Kabbalah.  It's not kosher kababalah, but it's still enmeshed enough in Jewish culture and context to know what kosher is, and why it's important, and to make conscious, informed decisions about when to hew to tradition, when to run along side it, and when to fuck tradition and do what's right.

Similar to the problems of dogmatism from dissociating your kabbalah too far from the wider world, there is also a problem when you try to remove kabbalah entirely from it's Jewish context.  At that point, you're no longer doing kabbalah, and you'll get no benefit from it you can't get from something like Core Shamanism.  Now, I LOVE modern syncretic practices, but there is benefit from going deep, as well as going wide.  It think that kabbalah is among the best ways for modern westerners, especially Jews and secular folks, to establish, develop, and deepen communication with both the Higher Self and the Divine, and to acquire the wisdom, understanding, and knowledge from which arise both power and compassion in the world.

However, just like the theoretical kabbalah's map isn't very useful until you have a chariot to travel in, traveling without a reliable map can be, at best, unwise and unproductive, and, at worst, psychologically dangerous.  If you don't know it, you might want to read the talmudic story "Four Go Down Into Paradise".

In this lesson, we're going to start with a very basic map, and a very basic ecstatic technique to move around that map.  In later lessons, we'll travel up and down the Tree of Life, and Open the Gates of the Seven Heavens.  However, today, we're going to learn one of the most basic of kabbalistic maps: The Four Worlds.

As I have been writing, the sun has just set and ushered in Simchat Torah, the festival of the revelation of Torah at Sinai.  Simchat Torah marks the end of Sukkot (the Festival of Shacks), which marks the end of the yearly cycle of Torah readings in the synagogue.  Tomorrow, we'll read both the last passage (Deut. 34) and the first (Gen 1).  This uniquely Jewish holiday is, at its core, a festival of knowledge and revelation; for me, the most salient image of the holiday is the parade of the scrolls around the synagogue, accompanied by singing, clapping, and dancing.  It is with attitude we wade into our first exercise in ecstatic kabbalah; try to encounter this lesson not as discrete bits of information to be memorized and analyzed, but as a living tradition of joy, one that you learn as much by dancing as by reading. (Although, honestly, in a lot of Orthodox communities, it borders on being a celebration of the unpleasant idolatry of fundamentalism.)

Fittingly, perhaps, one of the synagogue readings that we began Sukkot with last week is The Vision of the Chariot (Ez 1:1-28).  The context of this vision is as important (perhaps more important) than the content.   In this passage, Ezekiel is living as a captive (a well-treated hostage) in Babylon, along with most of the intellectual elite of Israel.   He lived along the banks of the river, and made his living there as a diviner.  When he received this vision, he was 30 years old, and had just received word of the sack of the Temple in Jerusalem (587 BCE).   Ezekiel is the only biblical prophet to receive visions outside the land of Israel; from this, we learn that prophecy (revelatory visionary trance) is possible for everyone, everywhere, at any time.  Ezekiel's vision of the chariot points us to the next great era of Judaism, one in which direct experience replaces Temple service as the primary way in which Jews interact with the Divine, a model from which arises the teachings of Jesus, before they were corrupted into idolatry.  

In a future lesson, we'll return to Ezekiel's chariot, and analyze it further.  For now, however, we're going to learn to build it.  No matter what it is being created, creation moves through four essential phases; we'll slowly walk through them, from abstract to concrete, and then arise again, from concrete to abstract, in the chariot we've imagined.

Before we begin, however, I want to make sure I communicate to you the MOST IMPORTANT KABBALAH LESSON YOU WILL EVER LEARN.  Everything I'm about to say is nonsensical bullshit.  Please don't believe anything I say.  Discover it all for yourself.  Traditionally, this would be said thus:  "All a teacher can do, the best of all teachers, is to read to you the chapter headings.  All the rest, you must read for yourself."  All I can do is offer context and pointers; the real work of learning is something you have to do for yourself.  Read the lesson many times.  Follow the links and read those.  You might try taping yourself reading the lesson to yourself, and listening to it as you drift to sleep.  Eventually, when you're ready, you'll find yourself knowing the lesson, instead of reading it.  When that happens, you will have a dream of ascending through the worlds.  After that happens, you're ready to move on to the next lesson.  If you've spent at least 6 hours over the course of two weeks on this lesson and not yet had an ascension dream, email me an audio recording of yourself reading it aloud and an essay of at least 800 words on your understanding of the lesson, and I'll teach you something stronger to help open the gate.

Before we can create, we need, for a moment, to talk about what it means to be a Creator.  In kabbalah, all of creation comes from a common source.  In this place, all things are one.   Here, in the place of Divine Unity, the world before the first world, we experience our connection to the entirety of creation. This is the state we access, in flashes and sparks, in our deepest trance, and our fullest ecstasy. The traditional name for this place is Ein Soph, which means, literally, infinity. On June 4, 1925, the Westphalian Mathematical Society held a conference in honor of Karl Weierstrass. At that conference, David Hilbert gave a famous speech which has since become known as "On the Infinite". In that speech, Hilbert said "...the definitive clarification of the nature of the infinite, instead of pertaining just to the sphere of specialized scientific interests, is needed for the dignity of the human intellect itself. From time immemorial, the infinite has stirred men's emotions more than any other question. Hardly any other idea has stimulated the mind so fruitfully, and yet no other concept needs clarification more than it does."  If you're interested in the relationship between mysticism and mathematics, you've come to the right place, my boy!  I am something of an expert on the Southern Oracle.  It's my scientific speciality.  You can read some of my thought on the mysticism of the transfinite arithmetic here and here.  Want to know more?  Buy me a drink, and I'll talk about it indefinitely.

Ein Soph is zero dimensional; there are no decisions to be made about where to go.  There is no elsewhere.  Ein Soph is the singularity point from which everything is created and to which everything returns, and it is also the infinite dimensionless void (called in Hebrew tohu wa bohu "formless and void").  Anything you visualize here will be all wrong, the best thing you can do here is just breathe, and feel, and be.  As you wait, breathing and being, you might find that you need a password to open the gates of being, a mantra to help you hold the space.  For now, we will use the name המקום, HaMakom, the Holy Place.  This is an easily overlooked Holy Name, but one of great depth and power.  Try to recall that, as Augustin says "Intus Deu altus est", "The Highest God is Within".

Breathe.  Find your rhythm.  Pull the entirety of the universe into yourself, a point, the singularity at the beginning of time.  Release, expanding to the very edges of forever. Breathe deeper.  Go faster, if you can.  In.  Out.  In.  Out.  Everything and Nothing in a never ending dance; nowhere and everywhere, all at once, timeless and eternal.  The Womb of Being, contracting, contracting, tighter and tighter, a singular point containing everything that was, is, or ever will be.

And the zero dimensional singularity explodes.  The Big Bang.  The moment of conception.

The point grows into a line, we find ourself in one dimensional space.  Here, we can make decisions; there is a way forward and a way back. The point stretches into the line, the first scratch in wet clay that will become the alphabet of our creation.  This world is inspiration, the flash of an idea that provides the impetus to create.  The hebrew name for this is atzilut, which literally means "stuff that's next to" but is usually translated as "emanation".  It is in aztilut that things first begin to differentiate.   In atzilut, things are distinct, and we can imagine qualities that some objects possess and others do not.  It is hear that we begin the construction of our chariot, by imagine the possibility that there are worlds different from our own, and imagining how we might go about traveling to them.  Here in Atzilut, things become.  We move.  We look out at the infinite line, stretching endlessly behind us with a history of things that have brought us to this place, a shining road rolling forever out before us, and we decide to build ourselves a chariot.  Once we have decided to create something, we proceed to the next world.  Again, it would be better not to try to visualize anything yet, but here is what Ezekiel makes of it:

And I looked, and, behold, a stormy wind came out of the north, a great cloud, with a fire flashing up, so that a brightness was round about it; and out of the midst thereof as the color of electrum, out of the midst of the fire. (Ez 1:4)  (pro tip: "electrum" is the greek name for the "gem" amber, and also a word for a kind of ancient alloy of gold with silver.  I'm 80% positive this means amber, but not 100%.)

Wednesday, September 30, 2015

Romantic Love Drawing Incense

This is a quick, easy recipe for love drawing incense.  You can modify it however you like,  The measurements are approximate, as all natural materials vary widely in potency.  This recipe was designed for use by women to draw men, but I don't really see why it wouldn't work for other people.  Really, I think you can use it for any Love or Venus magic.

Scent Ingredients (all plant material is dry, if using fresh, you will need much more)

  • 6 parts red rose petals (these can be purchased quite cheaply at Indian or Middle Eastern grocers)
  • 3 part jasmine blossoms
  • 1 part mugwort
  • 1 part dried berries (raspberries, blackberries, strawberries, etc)
  • 1 part ceylon cinnamon
  • 2 parts powdered frankincense
  • 1 part honey


Magical Materia (You don't need to add all (or, really, any) of them, and you can add others too.  Anything you have that's full of lovey-dovey juju will work)
  • roses of sentimental value (I use roses my late father gave my late mother)
  • 1 freshwater pearl, crushed
  • 7 drops of your own blood
  • a little bit of "vital essence"
  • 1 white goose, swan, dove, or pigeon feather (it's better to find this than buy it, I think)  
    • "rip" apart the barbs (the soft part) so they are separate
    • with scissors, cut the barbs (the soft bits) off of the rachis (the hard "stalk" in the middle) in small pieces, directly into the incense
  • a couple of clovers, from a "magic spot"
  • a dried honey bee, crushed into powder
  • a small piece of honey comb
  • a pinch of copper filings (this produces an awesome green aura when burnt)
  • crumbs of wedding cake
  • dirt from the graves of a happy couple


Wednesday, September 2, 2015

Recipe: Red Beet Eggs




Red beet eggs are a Lancaster County / PA Dutch specialty.  I used to make them with my dad all the time.  My mother and younger brother HATED them, but Dad and I loved them.  They're cool, and slightly sour, and sweet, and delicious.  They're especially good with crunchy, salty snacks like potato chips or pretzels.  They're also good deviled or in egg salad.  I mentioned on facebook that I made a batch this evening, and someone requested a recipe.  So, here you go...


I don't really measure when I make them; these measurements are all estimated.  It's totally ok to use more or less of anything; I like mine extra sour.  You might want to cut back on the vinegar slightly.

INGREDIENTS

  • 1 dozen hard boiled eggs, shelled
  • 1 large glass jar.  You can make these in plastic, but the container will be pink forever after.  A tall container is better than a short, wide one.
  • 1 15oz can sliced beets, cut up
  • about 1/2 cup diced red onion
  • 1 cup (more or less) white vinegar  (you can also use apple cider vinegar)
  • 1/4 cup white sugar
  • 1/4 cup salt


NON-TRADITIONAL, but delicious additions (I use all of these)

  • about 1 Tbsp whole cloves
  • 4-6 cloves garlic, smashed
  • about 1 Tbsp whole black peppercorns


DIRECTIONS

  • Put the eggs in the bottom of the jar, whole.
  • Dump in the beets and onions.
  • Mix the vinegar and everything else together in a bowl.
  • Pour over the eggs and beets.
  • Put in the refrigerator and wait about a week.  (Because they are pickled, they will keep without being refrigerated, but people FREAK OUT when they find out I eat eggs that have been sitting on the counter for weeks.
  • The longer they pickle, the better they get.


I make all kinds of other pickled eggs as well.  Ginger and black tea.  Garlic and balsamic.  etc, etc... Basically, you just need to make a brine of vinegar, salt, and sugar and whatever spices you want.  At Christmas time, we used to make a dozen red beet eggs and a dozen without beets, and with green food coloring.

Monday, August 24, 2015

Curse Work



As an adult, I very rarely curse people.  Most of the time, it just doesn't feel right.  Sometimes, however, there's no question that a curse is what's called for.  Below, please find a curse to be brought down on Daesh (aka ISIS aka Hamas).  One good time to work, and when I'll be doing it, is this Saturday, August 29th, between 9:20 and 10:31 am.  (hour of mars, day of saturn)


INSTRUCTIONS


You will need:
A printout of the Daesh flag.  
A printout of the text below.
A black pen or marker.  (if you’re into that sort of thing, bat’s blood ink would also be a good choice)

An egg (preferably white-shelled)

paper towels
A black or red candle (or white is also ok, if you don’t have black). A red reversing to black female figural candle is ideal.
A midden (such as a diaper pail, outhouse, porta-potty, or gross, smelly dumpster.  NOT a compost pile.)


  1. Lay down some newspapers or etc. This is going to get messy.
  2. Write the execration text OVER the flag with the black ink.  It doesn’t matter if you can’t see it very well.  Pour all your venom, fury, and righteous hatred into the writing.  Say it aloud as you write. Try to space it so it fills most of the flag. Add some lighting bolts and crossbones and other appropriate symbols if there is empty space.
  3. Put the egg in the center of the flag.
  4. Light the candle.  Feel it’s flame.  Read the text over and over, louder and louder, feeling your fury rise, boil, and burn.
  5. When you reach peak fury, slam your hand down on the egg, breaking it all over the flag.  Focus all your fury, all your hate, into the slam.
  6. Crumple of the entire mess, including the paper towels, and throw it into the midden (filth-hole) of your choice. If you REALLY can't do a midden, burn the paper and flush the ashes.
  7. Laugh.  Take a hot shower, and scrub yourself with salt.  Stand in the sunshine.  You’re not done until you feel clean and healthy and at peace.


The Execration Text

Lilith, Lamashtu, Night Monster, Lilith, Lamashtu, Screech Owl, Lilith, Lamashtu, Howling Desert Wind: We cry out to you.  Your desert is being defiled.  Daesh, the trampler, Daesh, the bigot, Daesh tracks filth across your holy places.


Lilith, Lamashtu, Fury of Woman.  Lilith, Lamashtu, Scorned One.  Lilith, Lamashtu, Demon Queen:  We cry out to you.  Your women are being defiled.  Daesh, the rapist, Daesh, the enslaver, Daesh tracks filth across your holy bosom.


Lilith, Lamashtu, Flail of Fire.  Lilith, Lamashtu, Silent Death by Night.  Lilith, Lamashtu, Blackest Scourge:  We cry out to you.  You are being defiled.  Daesh, the cowardly worm, Daesh, the excrement of dogs, Daesh tracks filth everywhere they go.


Howling Wind, Warlike Daughter of Night, Fiercest of the Sisters, Lilith, Lamashtu, we summon you!
Avenger of Women, Enemy of the Sons of Oppression,  Lilith, Lamashtu, we summon you!
Demon Queen, Poison-Wife, Mistress of Darkness, Lilith, Lamashtu,
wipe Daesh from the earth!
With fire and wind and scouring sand, flail the flesh from their bones!
Empower their enemies, give strength to those whom they seek to destroy!
Lilith, Lamashtu, Flint-Bladed Knife of the Night:
Only their blood will make you clean again.
Only the deaths will bring back balance.  
Only their utter destruction will right the scales.


Kill them, O Lilith Lamashtu!  Kill the defiler.  Kill the rapist!
Scourge them, O Lilith Lamashtu  Scourge the enslaver!  Scourge the oppressor!
Pour out their blood on the sands, O Lilith Lamashtu!  Let it trickle into your dark places.
Crush their skulls with your stones, O Lilith Lamashtu!  Let their brains sink into the sands.
Scatter their organs to the scavengers, O Lilith Lamashtu!  Let vultures and jackals feast upon them.
Scour their bones with sand and wind, O Lilith Lamashtu!  Let their corpses be forgotten.
Lilith Lamashtu, Demon Queen, Screeching Owl, Howling Desert Wind, erase them and all they have wrought.
Lilith Lamashtu, Ancient One, Nameless One, Oldest Power of Darkness,
eat their souls, pale and powerless, whining ghosts, that they may never know peace!  
Eat their souls, that they may never be born again.
Eat their souls and be avenged.
Eat their souls and be sated.  
Eat their souls and return to your underworld home.

Saturday, August 22, 2015

The Mighty Hippopatamus

A random memory: The summer between 2nd and 3rd grade we moved to a new school district. Very early in the year, perhaps even the first day of school, in gifted class, we were asked what our spirit animal was (obviously, it was not phrased that way; I don't remember the exact question...something like "If you were an animal, what animal would you be?") I said "hippopotamus". Now, as a fat girl, it was not a wise choice to say that out loud. I was teased unmercifully about it (and lots of other things) for some many years thereafter. Eventually, I denied I had ever even said such a thing, and tried to forgot all about it. I wonder what that does to a spirit-animal...mocking, denying, and forgetting them. This echos what has become of the hippo in modern western culture; they are considered comical. Well, I am reclaiming that part of me. Hail Hippopotamus! In restitution for this insult, I have made a sin offering to the WWF to "adopt" an African Hippopotamus.
Hippopotami are fucking awesome. While herbivorous, they are among the most dangerous animals in Africa; more powerful by far than lions, more aggressive than crocodiles. They have no significant natural predators. Among the Zulu, they are the symbol of bravery. A Zulu would be somewhat offended to be told he was "brave as a lion"; instead, a warrior is described as "brave as a hippo". In Egypt, they were considered a symbol of both male virility and female mother-protectiveness.
Of all animals on earth, the hippo is the most similar to that common ancestor of both whale and elephant; the wisest tribe of mammals. Alone among large animals, they are semi-aquatic. Legendarily, hippos sweat blood (although it is actually a reddish colored natural sunscreen they excrete). Hippos are a bit gender-queer (ie, they do not exhibit strong sexual dimorphism), and not particularly social. (just like me!)


Thursday, August 13, 2015

Sedna: Mother of the Cold Sea

Sedna by Antony Galbraith,  http://fineartamerica.com


A friend and priestess of Apollo has recently told me that He says the single thing we magicians can do right now to help the entire planet is to work to strengthen the oceans.  In order to help, I've been instructed by Sedna to make her a sound.  Most of the gods and goddesses I work with come from the Near Eastern and Greek pantheons of my ancestors.  Recently, however, I've been starting to work with more American spirits.  Sedna, ᓴᓐᓇ, is the Inuit name for the Great Goddess of the Arctic Ocean; the Mother of Cold Sea.  While she is primarily known in the Arctic circle, I believe her to extend well into the Northern Atlantic, especially in Winter.  Wherever the icy arctic water reaches, there is Sedna.

My very first introduction to Sedna was in this folk song, by Canadian artist Heather Dale.

I immediately recognized my beloved cold-water goddess.  When I was young, my family went to the (midAtlantic) beach every year in the summer.  While my mother was not a fan, my father and I shared a love for the ocean.  One of my earliest memories is my father teaching me to jump waves..."put your arms out like superman, bend your knees, and as soon as you feel the sea begin to pull you, get ready, the wave is coming, get set....JUMP!"  Many years, especially after I was old enough to drive myself, I also visited in the winter, near my birthday (president's day weekend).  It was always clear to me that the ocean was ruled by different spirits at those times, and, as much as I love the summer ocean, it is the bone-cracking-cold winter Atlantic that holds my heart.

Sedna has a story for me to tell you, which isn't quite the usual story of her birth, but it is the story of how she came to be none the less.

Sedna, the 10th planet.
Sedna, the Mother of the Icy Seas.
Sedna, the Arctic Ocean, the Great Ice of the North.
The Gate at the Edge of Forever.
The Whale,  The Great One,
The Black Dragon of the North.
The Arctic Ocean.  The Great Wall of Ice.
The Daughter Sacrificed.
The victims, the daughters of the patriarchs.
The matriarch, deposed.
The Sea Witch.
The Daughter of Sea and Sky.
The Great Lady Below.

In ancient days, the ocean was cold, and still, and utterly lifeless, tohu wa bohu.
Father took Daughter out on the sea. 
A storm arose; Chaos blew over the surface of the waters.
Father was afraid.  Father blamed Daughter.
He cast her overboard, but she clung for life to the sides of the boat.
Father, afraid, took up the oar.  
Once, he bashed Daughter's fingers.  
Twice, he bashed at her hands.  
Daughter was cold.  Her hands turned to ice.
A third time, Father struck, and her fingers shattered. 
They fell into the sea and became whale, walrus, seal, and porpoise.  
Daughter sank down, to the bottom of the sea, and there she still resides.

So, it seems that's what Sedna had to say on the subject; I don't see how I could improve on that description (were it even my privilege to do so).

In lieu of physical offerings, Sedna desires charitable donations and work on behalf of the deep sea.
She will also accept the finest quality of eel sushi, thrown into the sea, north of the 45th parallel.

I have created an audio file at Sedna's instruction.  Listening to it will help you connect to Sedna, to all deep ocean spirits, arctic and other northern genius loci, and large arctic marine mammals.  It can also be used to help heal the teeth and jaws, the skull and spine.  

The sound also heals something else, something difficult for me to even explain.  This sound helps to heal mother-guilt, the injury done to the soul of a mother who (intentionally or not) injures her child.  It can heal your own mother-guilt, but also any ancestral/karmic mother-guilt you might have inherited. It WILL NOT heal father-guilt; I'll see if I can find someone else to take that on.  

It can also help heal the trauma experienced by a baby during a difficult birth, especially those of us born by cesarian section.

Sedna is not a friendly goddess;  she is mighty, wrathful, and does not give a shit about you.  DO NOT fuck around with her.   It is unlikely that just listening to this sound will provoke direct experience of her, but, should you find yourself in contact with Sedna, approach her respectfully.  The filth of humans poisons her children, chokes her seas, clogs her eyes and nose and mouth.  Our filth and waste is tangled in her hair.  Help her comb it out: gently, and lovingly, and in cognizance of your guilt.

This sound is VERY safe to use in the summer, or anywhere/when it is warm out.  A much more powerful, but potentially dangerous, experience can be had by working with it while cold, especially while submerged in cold water.  THIS IS FOR EXPERIENCED TRANCE WORKERS ONLY.

As with any healing magic, you might experience the "badness" leaving your body in a variety of forms, including as digestive gas, or emotional catharsis.  Try hard not to engage with / attach to anything the sound shakes loose, just let it flow out of you.  You might feel the need to move around your spine or jaws, and you might experience some popping as they subtly shift into alignment. However, if you experience pain, remove your headphones, turn off the sound, drink some water, and you will rapidly return to your normal state of consciousness.  Obviously, I'm not a doctor, and the sound can't substitute for actual medical care.  See a doctor!

Try to listen to it with headphones, or speakers with VERY good subwoofers.  There are some almost-too-low to hear sounds, including the so-called Pigeon tone, at 69.3 Hz.  

The audio opens with Heather Dale's song.  Please pay her for it!  You can buy the song (and many others!) here for $1.

After the song, the sound consists of various ocean noises, including nearly-subsonic fin whale signals recorded off the coast of Ireland.  Also included are a pseudo-solfeggio tone at 69.3 Hz, a a hollow mammoth tusk, a Tibetan frame drum, and a few other things.  There are no isochronics or binaurals; this sound is epileptic-safe.








Sunday, August 2, 2015

Throat Healing Sound

Surrender, by Mykal Aubry (mykalaubry.com).


Most of you know I'm quite active in the Strategic Sorcery group founded by Jason Miller.  On Wednesday, I and three compatriots joined dozens of other magicians all over the globe in preforming a global Mercury rite.  I'm not permitted to disclose the details of that rite (I really do highly recommend Jason's class.  Even if ALL you got was entry into the group, that would be well worth the cost.)

My working partners and I have had great results so far.  J won a free cruise to the Bahamas.  B inherited a jaguar (a car, not a panther) from a rich grandfather he's never met.  Lots of other more personal things have clicked into place for all of us, particularly in the realms of travel and communication.

One piece of tech from the ritual I can share is that it involves a layered drone chant of the letter epsilon.  (eh sound).   While experimenting further with the sound, I found myself assuming the godform of ibis-headed Thoth.  This is a godform I assume quite often before I begin teaching (my IRL job), as well as whenever else I feel extra intellectual/spiritual authority.  It's a relatively easy shapechange, which is mostly just elongating the neck and curving the central channel forward after it exits the top of the skull.  In any case, it happened all on its own, and I received a very clear teaching on how to use the sound to heal both the physical neck, throat, upper spine, thyroid, and teeth, but also the energetic throat chakra and its associated channels and whatnots.  The sound below was primarily designed by Thoth -Hermes, although he consulted Asklepious (a spirit I only recently met, while in Greece.  I'll tell you soon all about my experiences at the Asclepion of Epidarus).

I have a friend currently recovering from serious neck surgery, so I'm hoping that this was especially designed for him, but I certainly felt lots of crud clean up in my neck while I was making and testing it.  Please report your results back to me, either directly, or in the comments below.  UPDATE: Turns out I have a number of friends with less severe neck injuries as well.  Y'all need to take better care of your necks!

To use it, all you really have to do is sit or lie down and relax, while listening to the sound.  It will help if you can vocalize or hum along, but you don't really have to.  More complete instructions can be found here, and the sound itself is here.  Headphones are not necessary, but even low-quality headphones produce better sound quality than all but the best speakers.

The sound includes drone-chanting by myself, Jason Miller, and Jesse Dollar, some bells and Tibetan singing bowls, the 741 hz solfeggio harmonic, and some other aural goodies.  There are no isochronics or binaurals; this should be a very safe sound for everyone.

If you send me a recording of yourself saying "ehhhhhhhh", I will mix it in.  Why should you bother?  Two reasons...
(1) this will make the sound dramatically more potent for you.  The sound of your own voice mixed in will help you rapidly and fully attune to the noise.  At least personally, I find nothing so enchanting as the sound of my own voice ;)
(2) It provides a direct sympathetic link between you and the sound, so that you receive "trickle down" healing whenever anyone uses it.  (think of it like a Tibetan prayer wheel, accumulating blessings with every turn).