I don't normally post about non-Jewish related magic here, but I wanted to talk about the magic I did last night.
I had a giant magic flop Saturday night. I just felt ridiculous, and I couldn't get into "the zone". After soem soul searching, I tried something very different from what I usually do last night, and I had AMAZING results. I made some absinthe a while ago, so I had some of that. Then I listened to this awesome shamanic drumming mp3
. I then listened to Andrieh Vitimus' amazing "Ceremony of Power
", which is very powerful; I strongly recommend it. Then there was more drumming
, and then just ocean white noise. I've never done magic via headphones before, but I really, really liked it. It was the most powerful shamanic vision-quest I've ever had, even compared to one with mushrooms. I'm going to record some audio magic of my own soon. (I'm off work yesterday and today for Sukkoth, and again next mon & tues for simchat torah, so maybe then)
It's hard for me to describe what happened, but I will try. After working thru the Al i Shan "Ceremony of Power" ritual (seriously, if you haven't tried it, DO IT NOW! It's a free download; it's super easy and very potent. If you've always wanted to try magic, but didn't know how to start, do this.), I was all lit up like an electric christmas tree.
I threw my head back and light came out like at the end of the The Fifth Element. I went swimming through the currents of the world, and turned into a giant fish. At first, I was afraid I would drown, but of course, I didn't. I went around eating up all the different kinds of magic. Thelema: tasty! Cthulhu? a little unpleasant, but down the gullet it went. I choked on the Sun, and had to spit it out. It was too big for me. But, I ate the moon all up. It was hard, but I swallowed it, and had a giant pregnant moon belly. Astarte taught me a dance, and a drum beat, for turning into a lion, so I prowled the jungle for a while. I did some magic for some goals I'm not going to talk about until after they manifest.
I went chasing after a goddess named Madeline. At first, I thought it was Mary Magdaline, but that wasn't quite right. Now, I think it might have been Madelyne Pryor, the Goblin Queen from X-Men.
I shifted through a whole lot of witch archetypes, and I settled into Pythia, the Oracle at Delphi. Have you seen pictures of that giant prehistoric snake? That was the Python of Delphi. She taught me a snake dance. Then, I met the one-armed Siberian shamaness from American Gods, and she taught me how to assume the mammoth form, which was very powerful and interesting. This was all in the context of the root evolutionary becoming ritual from Clan of the Cave Bear (don't you judge me!) Then, I assumed Bear form, which was kind of weird, and felt not so much like me, but still cool. I was Kitara from Avatar, the last Airbender very briefly, and then I was the Avatar Form, which seemed a lot like being Buddha, but with magic powers.
I have arranged these things as if they went in a narrative sequence, but that's not entirely right; they were all happening over and over in a sort of spiral. Here's another way to explain it:
I started off in the primordial chaos, and Tiamat taught me to be a giant fish (or possibly a Leviathon). Sometimes I was a river dragon instead of a fish. I swam about eating/absorbing things, until I turned into the Great Goddess, seated on a throne. I swallowed malkuth, and went up to the moon. I swallowed that to. I shot through Hod like electricity. Thoth taught me a bird-headed thing, which was weird, and my glasses kept sliding down my beak (I don't know why that wasn't a problem when I was, say, a fish...I think because Thoth Hermes is a godform I assume a lot, so it felt like my regular body). Anyhow, I got to Netzach, which was pleasant and sticky and sexy and wet. I spent some time there. I tried the Sun again, but Jesus was there, and that freaked me out, and I choken again, and had to spit the Sun out. It was too big for me to swallow. This happened several times. After a while, I realized that I didn't have to worship Jesus, I had to be him, which was less threatening, but getting crucified seemed like it would suck, so I spit that out again.
The next time up, I tried calling him Buddha instead of Jesus, and that was better, but still problematic. It was the pointy-hat Indian Buddha, not the round curls or the fat one. (And that is the extent of my familiarity with the Eastern mysteries). I thought to ask Ganesh to open to way for me, which sort of helped. I realized that, fuck Jesiu, fuck Buddha, I'm Jewish, and so I just opened the gates of Tiphereth the way Abulafia taught me to. There I learned that all the gods are One, and they're all me, which seemed more profound and less like New Agey drivel at the time. Anyhow, I finally managed to choke down the Sun, and I swallowed it. The Angel of Tipheret (who looked suspiciously like Milla Jovavitch in the Fifth Element) taught me how to make a Gate of the Sun potion (recipe coming soon). I owe Andrieh a bottle for his awesome Ceremony, which I've used before. I got good results before, but nothing so amazing as last night.
Then I did some magic, which I intentionally forgot. I remember it flying away like a butterfly. Then I got kind of queasy. I called to Brian to come help me, but he wasn't anywhere (well, actually it turns out he was on the porch, but it seemed like he was no where). I stumbled to the bathroom and threw up a little, which was lame, but then I rewound time, so that didn't actually happen (which made sense at the time). Brian finally showed up and helped me to bed. I just wanted to sleep, but there was one last thing. Pythia came again, and gave me an important prophecy, which I can't talk about, and I hope isn't true. I guess we'll see soon.
I slept for a really long time (about 10 hours). I'm still feeling weirdly disconnected from my body, and not fully grounded, which is not unpleasant, but not very productive either. Eating is a very sensual pleasure right now. I wasn't up for cooking, but Brian made me some ramen and peas, and they were the best things ever.
So, there you go. Magical field report.